dave-arnett

This is about someone I don't know but who has effected me more than I can show.


I restrain your wriggling, Take my fingers to your eyes and pull them, squeeze them, enjoy your cries. NO GUILT

Your fingers would break one by one as you sob because your sight has gone. NO GUILT

Rip your skin and see the blood, you bleed out, like you should. NO GUILT

I take my hand down your mouth and pull your tongue too far out, it breaks and rips and I shout: YOU DID WORSE TO ME, SHALL I LET YOU OUT ?

I untie you and kick you from your bloody chair, you lie there bleeding, scared, 'THIS IS ALL YOU DESERVE YOU PIECE OF SHIT'

Your face I begin to hit and continue until your just blood, 'I HAVE NO GUILT, I KNEW I NEVER WOULD !'

'I'll LEAVE YOU NOW AND LET YOU BE.....'

'FUCK IT'

I run back and stamp and stab, you life gives up and I laugh, because...

'I hate your EVERY FUCKING CELL !, I HOPE YOUR MEMORY, SOUL AND BEING ROTS IN HELL !'

No one is going to read this, I don't know why I am writing this, I guess its therapeutic to just write things down

I've got no subject really....

Who I am kidding ? Theres only ever one subject, The subject knows who it is

Work, College work, Personal creativeness, Reading, Playing on ps3, concentrating on my fish tank, Going out with friends.... its all just things to do while I aren't talking to THE one thing that matters to me

I have been in my bed all day, its my only day off and I've wasted it and I don't care, I have waited for 10pm since 12pm this morning, I don't care that I only got up to pee, I don't care that I didn't have anything to eat, I don't care that I didn't wash or brush my teeth, I don't care that I was really moody and ignorant towards my mother because I just wanted to be left alone... I don't care about any of that because I could only concentrate on THE one thing that can fulfill me or destroy me...

Please don't destroy me

First Journal entry

I am an art student, I dwell mostly at Hull School of Art and Design and try my hardest to understand whats going on most of the time.

I awkwardly like writing just as much if not more at times than art but I try my best to be interested in art more.

I have been working on photoshop lately, most of my work is from photoshop but there are some paintings hanging around college that I try to avoid sight of.

I have recently acquired a new way of working, concentrating and doing something, it works well. I know I'm capable so I am confident in my new project.

Recently has been an 'interesting' time for me to put it vaguely, alot of bad/negative things going on but now everything is EXCELLENT and its all down to my 'Favorite Photographer/Girlfriend' Joelene

She is my motivation and the only thing that ever Truly matters to me and I need create more work with that incorporated into it.

That is quite a lot about me for now, there will probably be more journal entries to come about future or present work